00:59

I've locked myself for hours in my room,
too lazy to do anything.

It was raining outside,
I turned the light off and covered my whole body with my favorite blanket.
I closed my eyes, enjoying the sound of thunder till I fell asleep,

In the middle of the night, I woke up.
Went to the kitchen and made myself a glass of hot chocolate
then came back to my room.

I turned the light on,
sat on the chair and mused for awhile.
The tears were running down my face, again.
I'm being too melancholic these days,
crying over everything.
I repeat, e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g.
I didn't know why.

Then I remembered something,
there was a man said to me; "if you're being confused with what you feel, just go to the mirror and look deeply into your eyes, you'll find the answer."
Well, I did that.
I went to the mirror and looked into my eyes very deeply.
and all I found is... destruction.
I messed up.

I took my phone and texted one of my friend with one emoji,
a crying emoji.
You may think I was an attention seeker, but no, I'm not.
I didn't mean to do that.
I was just looking for a place where I can shed all of these shits.

In one minute, she texted me back, begging me to tell her what's going on.
I was about to tell her but suddenly my fingers stopped typing and instead of finishing the story, I cleared them all.
I think it will be better to not tell it to anyone.
I'll just tell this to the wind and let the wind send it to the Almighty one.

Then she texted me again, told me she was there to help me,
told me she would make me feel better.

But darling,
only silence can make me feel better.